A GOOD GROUP
  • Home
  • Resume
    • Overview
    • References
    • LinkedIn
    • Download Resume PDF
    • Design Portfolio
  • Design Portfolio
  • Blog
  • Creative Writing
    • Transitional Objects
    • Excuse Bad Writing
    • The Daily Collegian
    • Engaged in an "Epizzle"
    • Annotated Bibliography of "Araby"
  • Social Media
    • Facebook
    • Twitter
    • Instagram
    • Twins Run in Our Family
    • In the News
  • Advocacy
  • Twins Run

PG-50+

2/27/2022

 
Picture
I have created a playlist of music from my favorite 80s movies: PG-50+.
I’ve danced. I’ve cried. It’s pretty emotional. Be cautious. :) 

PEOPLE STRONGLY CAUTIONED
Some material may be inappropriate for those 50+ taking a trip down memory lane. 

Untouchable Face Remake

2/9/2022

 
​To: Ani DiFranco
From: Leah Connor
Re: Thank you.
Hi! I’m 50 years old and I haven’t written a fan letter to a musician since I was probably 15, but I need to personally reach out to say thank you, Ani. 
​
Long story short, I had a very toxic and damaging relationship with a psychologist from 2007-2020 and when I requested an appointment with him during the throes of COVID-19 he offered me dates, until I insisted on a tele-therapy appointment and then replied, “I’ll pass.”  I reported him to the Department of Health Professionals 40 days later. There was an investigation, I provided evidence, and the report was submitted in December 2020. It’s now February 2022 without any resolution and it’s been unbearable to wait.

I have an MFA in creative writing (2004), but I haven’t written much in the past 20 years. The only thing that helped me get through the roughest days lately was screaming out the chorus of “Untouchable Face.” That’s when I thought, wow I should remake this song especially for me. So I did and this is what I came up with so far:​

I know I’m not a saint 
I analyze and criticize 
with remorse, without restraint
I know I’m not a fake 
Making enemies and allies
Reliving my mistake
I can’t take back my complaint
​


​So fuck you
…
and this unresolvable case

Fuck you
…
for destroying a safe space

And who am I?
​to dare call you out on your shit

I said who am I?
to win against a narcissist


I sat on your couch
Vocalizing my doubts
Wondering what it would be like to trust
Build intimacy without touch or lust


​Except fuck you
…
for denying my grace

Fuck you
…
for cheating in this race

And who am I?
that I should want closure

I said who am I?
To lose my composure


Early on, I dared to complain
at sessions starting late
the stolen minutes 
proved you didn’t care (enough) 
with so much at stake 
If I only knew how to wait
when staying gets tough
​

Fuck you
…
for the memories I can’t erase

Fuck you
…
for making me feel out of place

And who am I?
To ask for boundaries and insist

I said who am I?
To deserve “I’ll pass” when you’re finished


Couldn’t learn my lessons
Couldn’t change my fate
Couldn’t hide the stuff
That finally made me break​

If only you kicked me out
when I wanted to leave
and needed a reprieve
when I couldn’t believe
I’d find water in a drought


And who am I?
If my complaint is dismissed

I said who am I?
If I don’t want to exist

I said who am I?
No more strength to resist

Who am I?
Tired from fighting like a darwinist

Who am I?
To blame myself for having caused all this


I am going to write the verses, but that’s going to take a bit more time. Until then, I’ll be singing Fuck you on repeat. :) 
YOUTUBE PLAYLIST
  • ​More videos showing the many beautiful hairstyles of Ani :) 

Lady Parts 5eva

2/5/2022

 
Peacock has two of my favorite new shows: Girls5eva and We Are Lady Parts.. Both feature an ensemble of women in lead roles as well as some catchy tunes that’ll make you smile.
Picture
Picture

ALIVE Notes

1/9/2022

 
The power of music is both undeniable and scientifically proven. It can help us run faster, reduce pain, increase relaxation, and even save a life.

In 2017, hip hop artist Logic released his powerful song “1-800-273-8255” about suicidal ideation, recovery, and the power of hope. The title comes from the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline and research recently published in the British Medical Journal indicates the popularity of the song could have saved as many as 245 lives with an increase in call volume to the hotline.

There’s actually a name for the persuasive power of mass media in helping those considering suicide to choose not to complete the final act: the Papageno effect.

Hip hop has a long history of tackling the difficult topic of mental health. In 1982, Grandmaster Flash and The Furious Five released “The Message” which vividly describes social injustice and the toll on Black lives:

“It’s like a jungle sometimes it makes me wonder how I keep from going under”
“Don’t push me cause I’m close to the edge, I’m trying not to lose my head”

Research has shown that the number of rap songs referencing mental health conditions doubled from 1998 to 2018. If more songs address the struggles with and treatment of mental disorders such as depression and PTSD, then it’s possible that the stigma and cultural resistance to seeking professional help will change over time.

It’s vitally important for more musicians and artists to be honest about their own experiences with anxiety or suicidal thoughts so that we normalize discussions about mental illness and treatment.

Unfortunately, multiple studies have shown an exponential growth in suicide rates and attempts amongst Black youth, especially girls and the age of those who are dying is getting even younger. One of the most startling statistics of racial disparities is that Black children under 13 die by suicide at almost twice the rate of white children under 13.

We need to reduce the stigma attached to suffering from mental health conditions and the need to seek professional help with or without medication.

Avoiding conversations about the realities of suicide doesn’t prevent it. We need the survivors of suicide (both those who have attempted and those who have lost a loved one due to mental illness) to speak up and help dispel the myths. We need to teach kids coping skills, where to go for help, and examples of overcoming a temporary mental condition or living productive lives with ongoing treatment of mental illness.

Some people think suicide is selfish or that it’s a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Sadly, many of those who die by suicide have lifelong personality disorders or other chronic health conditions (mental or physical) that cannot be cured and require ongoing treatment and medication. It’s impossible to know whether or not someone’s life experiences that lead to suicidal thoughts are just temporary – they could include sexual abuse, poverty, PTSD, obesity, diabetes, or other struggles that are ongoing and possibly never-ending. Rather than judging those who are suffering, let’s support and listen to them.

One tool I find that has helped me and my friends and relatives who suffer from mental illness is to find at least one song that makes you smile, gives you hope, or inspires you to dance and have that song ready for when you need to distract your mind from the negative thoughts - call it your Alive Note. Sometimes I’ll play just one song on repeat for hours if it makes me feel less alone or gets me moving. Exercise is another proven method for improving your physical and mental health so why not combine music with a walk or workout.

Have a purpose for your playlists. I’ve organized songs to help pump me up or to calm me down, songs that help me laugh or make me cry … whatever I need to feel all the feelings.

Some of my faves include “Ladies First” by Queen Latifah & Monie Love (to feel empowered) and “Just Look Up” by Ariana Grande & Kid Cudi (for a laugh!).

My ALIVE notesHip Hop & Mental Health
What are your power songs? Share your “Alive Notes” with us!

    @leahcville

    1/2 of  @TwinsRun
    Wife of @SportingKyd
    Mom of 2 with James Joyce inspired names
    Director of @RivannaMarathon
    Writer at @agoodgroup
    #PokémonGo enthusiast
    #GeeksWhoDrink player

    #TWINSRUN50K

    Categories

    All
    Abortion
    Apologies
    Christmas
    Creative Writing
    Death
    Eating Disorders
    Family
    Friendship
    Graphic Design
    Gratitude
    Interviews
    Mental Health
    Movies
    Music
    Pokemon Go
    Running
    San Francisco
    TWINS RUN
    VA FILM FEST
    Volunteering
    Watch List
    Wordle
    Work

    Archives

    January 2023
    December 2022
    November 2022
    October 2022
    September 2022
    July 2022
    June 2022
    May 2022
    April 2022
    March 2022
    February 2022
    January 2022
    December 2021
    September 2021
    August 2021
    June 2021
    May 2021
    April 2021
    March 2021
    September 2020
    January 2019
    October 2017
    August 2017
    October 2016
    February 2016
    January 2016
    October 2015
    September 2015

    View my profile on LinkedIn

    RSS Feed

Home } Resume } Design Portfolio | Blog | Creative Writing
About | Passions | Social Media } Contact

​​agoodgroup.org

  • Home
  • Resume
    • Overview
    • References
    • LinkedIn
    • Download Resume PDF
    • Design Portfolio
  • Design Portfolio
  • Blog
  • Creative Writing
    • Transitional Objects
    • Excuse Bad Writing
    • The Daily Collegian
    • Engaged in an "Epizzle"
    • Annotated Bibliography of "Araby"
  • Social Media
    • Facebook
    • Twitter
    • Instagram
    • Twins Run in Our Family
    • In the News
  • Advocacy
  • Twins Run