 Whenever I get WORLDE in one guess, I feel like it’s a sign. I’m one of those people who switches their starting word every day based on my current mood or thoughts at the time I decide to play the game. Yesterday I was thinking about the end of the year and what stood out the most as I reflected on how I feel now versus January 1, 2023. I learned a lot of new information about a situation that has preoccupied my mind for years. I learned so much about myself with the final resolution of that conflict. And, I have started planning 2024 with new opportunities to learn by signing up for a couple of writing groups so I can hopefully take my experience and create something that could help others and myself. So I typed in LEARN on my Wordle board and it was all green. YES! One of the greatest gifts I received this year was meeting someone who shared a similar experience with me. Our relationship started with a “Thank you” from her to me, but I want to end this year by publicly thanking her as well. I am not alone. When the attorney for the Commonwealth told me there was a “zero percent chance” based on her experience that I was the only one harmed by this therapist, I believed her. It took less than a month to have proof that she was right. On January 8, 2022 I posted a public review on Google indicating that I filed a complaint with the VDHP because I hoped someone who could relate would reach out to me. It worked. I never realized how liberating it would be to finally connect with another woman who knew firsthand what I had gone through in “therapy” because she could have told the same story that I shared with the investigator. It’s heartbreaking to finally know for certain that I wasn’t alone in being hurt by this psychologist, but it’s been a huge relief to accept that there wasn’t something uniquely and inherently wrong with me that allowed it to happen. It wasn’t ME, it was his MO. But this post isn’t about him and the damage he inflicted on at least two people (and undoubtedly many more). It’s about how justice and public accountability in this case finally led to new and valuable connections. Empathic and intelligent people can stay in damaging relationships for many reasons. We can rationalize. We can analyze. There’s nothing wrong with being a caring person who wants to be cared about. There’s nothing wrong with being a person who is eager to fix things or who works hard to make things right. I am so proud of myself for having the courage to file a complaint with the Department of Health Professions and to submit a Google review with my real name. There were many moments over the past three years when I regretted my decisions and feared there would be no good outcome. I’m so relieved to know my actions have made a difference and helped others. Because I did both of these things, I was able to meet another strong and brave woman who in a very short amount of time has made a huge impact on my life. There is so much power in sharing and in listening. I hope 2024 is a year where both of us continue to learn new ways to heal and to grow, to find purpose and to continue moving forward. Thank you to my newest friend.
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For awhile I’ve wanted to share all my Wordle guesses and then create short short stories from them. I like to think of Wordle as a horoscope or journal prompt for me. I pick different starter words every day based on my mood or what’s on my mind. I love the creative journey! Hopefully I can make a habit out of sharing my guesses like I have been at playing the game and sharing scores with my group text of family who are equally invested in playing this game. 
From RIGID to MEDAL
This is the second most meaningful Wordle board after getting DREAM in just one try on Day 4 of The Virginia Film Festival when I was thinking of my temp role at VAFF as the DREAM JOB! 😴 💼 🎥 RIGID is a word used to describe me by a therapist who now has a hearing scheduled in February 2023, two years and 5 months after I filed the complaint. All I wanted was a public record. I got it! ✔️🏅 I’m still trying to process what it means to finally get something I so desperately wanted: VALIDATION. Acknowledgement by an unbiased Board that what happened to me was either negligent or intentionally harmful (or “causing injury”). It’s hard to believe that I finally received an email about the progress of my complaint after having the first phase of my exit interview with VAFF, when I connected these two events in my last post, I had no idea that this day would come while I was still working at the Festival. Stay tuned for more about my desire for connections and finding meaning in my work - the writing, the therapy, and the job. I LOVE WORDLE! I even am making a bunch of wordle-themed Halloween costumes and Christmas cards. See more of my Wordle obssession including my favorite cartoons, screenshots of my boards, etc. agoodgroup.com/wordle.html WELLNESS CHECK by leah connor If I don't share my Wordle score Please send a wellness check to my door I may be dead or captive If Garmin shows me inactive If I suddenly feel attractive These are signs not to ignore Please send a welfare check to my door If I look rich instead of broke If I see a bear that I can’t poke If I never laugh at a joke Please check in on me If I stop being the squeaky wheel If I quit obsessing about how I feel If you think it’s worth the trek Please check in on me If my tweets seem jejune If I text "no worries" or "soon” If I speak without saying "I'm sorry” If I'm not bold, anything but chary If I rant without expletives If I pass a test for stress I may be under duress If I pretend I don't care Or write a blog but don't overshare If I don't keep a promise If I'm not brutally honest If I can’t imagine the absolute worst If I grab a Pepsi to quench my thirst It’s not me If I don’t celebrate Christmas before Halloween If I’m not a Hallmark-y glued to the tv screen If I don’t lose something of value every day Or fail to admit I‘m atheist before I pray If I don’t offer to take the blame If I don’t live off guilt and shame It‘s not me If I miss a chance to self-deprecate And start showing up an hour late It’s not me If I avoid self checkout, trash Apple Pay If I make the choice to leave today It’s not me If I ask for sex, but decline a hug Cancel the doc who might prescribe a drug It’s not me If I love the chimes when there’s a breeze If I see the forest instead of trees It’s not me If I decide to just let it go If I stop admitting what I don’t know It’s not me If I’m ever satisfied without wanting more If I don’t share my Wordle score Please check in on me 
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